brake high

don't even know how i'd do it
something that we wear
endless and engraved
no reason – none at all
he told me to stop thinking
"just feel"
that's the most dangerous proposition
i've heard all week
plug my ears and la-la-la to distant songs
no attention to the issue at hand
can only juggle for so long
something -or someone -will hit the floor soon
just like cars in a city at rush
something's gonna have to give
brake or be broken, right?
yeah.
i've never prayed so hard for a red light.

movie mind

that's fine.  i'll just wait.
go ahead and blow up just once more
come knock-knocking hours later
with chocolate words and flower touches
happy times are nothing but ticking
ticking
countdowns
until your lack of control
yes, honey, i know
never meant to hurt – wasn't about me
volcano expression -hot lava seeping into skin, eyes, mouth
was never about villagers or friendly trees, either
shuffle the justifications
and deal me my hand
i'm a better bluff than you'd think
thoughts entertain
next show time is scheduled for
not-around-you o'clock

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not going dry today
have drunken so much hurt
and now it’s time to swagger and sing
not the worst by any means
but quickly falling down down
regret, invisibility, no, done -all things i wish for
all signs that are posted and leaning when
one leaves
want to float i do
not invest, not commit
i’ll tuck these away and forget
those are bad thoughts, little girl
can’t ask, can’t expose
without casting into flames
what is secure – all or nothing
duty, loyalty
what a binding concept
i’ll set out my clothes for tomorrow
and this heartless jerk will retire