11o

May 1, 2006

this is awful…

but for a while,
i wished that my angel cowboy
would have a flaw
or do something to mess this up -

because then,
the hard decisions would not
have to be made…

but he has been perfect
in every way
and
i’ve stopped wishing
for an easy end


10o

May 1, 2006

i love my brother. we’re not close and i don’t know if we’ll ever be – but i admire him. he has always been out of place but has plugged on despite. i hope he finds his niche in this hard world.