13o

a while back – you and i had talked on the phone. you heard me in a more broken state than i ever wanted you to hear.

it was a hard august.

you said you were happy. now dating the friend of your mistress. and i can’t blame you – she is beautiful and free and so not me. i knew she was next.

you’ve been working on your music you said. but i knew that. i’m sure it’s great. . . i’ll never criticize your talent. you told me your betrayal was not my fault and apologized for making me feel that way.

you are the picture of moving on.

i wish i could say i’d hoped you had suffered, but those aren’t my cards to deal. you don’t believe in god anymore you said. i told you i was in love. you said i needed to have more confidence in myself. damn – you still know me. you said we should meet up and talk but i said i could not go.

pink rabbit dance

So long and so short at the same time
Memories claimed and burned by pride’s gaze
Emotions are faulty vehicles for a proper goodbye
And I’m left in awkward silence

So much to say but no reason to speak
Underneath the singe remember with a smile
We’ll have that place for you and I
In a land where pink rabbits dance

Fade into experience pressed down by time
Just a step on the ladder of living
Wanted to be the book, a cherished volume
Now broken down into one sentence

If only you could see baby girl now
Not so far off from what was desired
Going, going, gone in violet sunset
All that is left to take is contained in cortex

So much to say but no reason to speak
Underneath the singe remember with a smile
We’ll have that place for you and I
In a land where pink rabbits dance

Youth is an excuse for cowards
I was never afraid until now
Claiming answers on the turnstile of the past
This ticket is getting folded and worn

So much to say but no reason to speak
Underneath the singe remember with a smile
We’ll have that place for you and I
In a land where pink rabbits dance